the rain

is falling upwards

lifts like a round of applause

but all we’re hurtling towards

that feeling twisting outwards

how’d you think that made me feel?

the rain is falling upwards

your eyes were bearing diamonds

i grew until i bored you

just another knot in your string

how’d you think that made me feel?

you said it was your funeral

laughed at all of the mourners

you said you’d just cut corners

spending years in drooling silence

but the rain is falling upwards it breaks your bones and burns your skin and boils your blood and does you in until you are nothing until you are nowhere until he is everything that he made you to be until you are raped and bruised and burnt and scared and nothing it breaks your bones and burns your skin and boils your blood and does you in until you are nothing until you are nowhere until he is everything that he made you to be until you are raped and bruised and burnt and scared and nothing

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it breaks your bones and burns your skin and boils your blood and does you in

until you are nothing until you are nowhere until he is everything that he

made you to be until you are raped and bruised and burnt and scared

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